This is a first for me but the fact is, I really need your help. My little goddaughter Talliyah was rushed to hospital on Saturday, quite ill. She underwent a series of very painful tests including a number of needles. They informed her mother that they required a urine sample and put her through excruciating pain inserting a catheter and then returned an hour later to say thay didn't get enough and would have to do it again. Her poor little palms were bruised and cut from squeezing her hands so tightly from the intense pain...and then informed her mother they would also have to do a spinal tap..."She may encounter headaches if you try to sit her up," they had told her mother. They tried to put in an IV - four damn times...but her little body was so racked with pain her fists wouldn't relax.

*breathe, Nick, breathe*  Ok, I'm fine now.

I never thought it possible that I could instantly love a child as I do her...This alone just tears my heart but the situation gets even more complicated. Her father allowed his visa to expire and immigration finally caught up with him. On this, I don't mind saying that I am very annoyed. It expired a year and a half ago!!!! And he has done nothing to rectify this situation. As a result, Tonya, my goddaughter's mother, has until his hearing on Wednesday to come up with $3,000 or he will be deported back to Jamaica.

She is on social assistance and the amount may as well be 3 million...there is nothing that she can do to get it and I'm not in a position to supply that amount of money. I feel like sh*t that I can't do more to help. Tonya is beside herself trying to deal with all of this and I'm being as supportive as I can.

What really disturbs me is that he could stay if somebody signs some type of assurity for him, guaranteeing he will meet the conditons for his release. One other requirement was that he marry her within a year or he would be sent back for sure.

I'm quite torn here...part of my wants so badly to just step up and do it but every time I consider that option, I get a very sick feeling in my stomach.

The major reason is due to my ongoing mediumship studies that have been progressing at an alarming rate...I am quite serious. And it's not because I've been putting too much time into them either. I've been getting an increasing number of "awarenessess" about people and situations, without conscious thought and it has become a little unsettling. I am very aware that this is happening, as it should, and it will take some time to adjust to this new energy and ability. The speed at which I've been able to obtain and understand pertinent and relevant meassages using my oracle deck,  has been almost dizzying. The connection with my doctor teacher guide has also progressed at an astounding rate...and the synchronicities that have been occurring are making my head spin. At any other time, I'd be dancing for joy because I know, without doubt, what is happening to me....I am in the process of a major change and stopping or retreating back is not an option.

My nightly visitors have returned and have made themselves felt in a large way. And not just me either. Tonya has been experiencing a dramatic increase in her own abilities...she's been having prophetic dreams and her clairsentience had become much more pronounced. At least that aspect I understand...she recently began to pursue her spirituality and her relationship with the Creator. She has had numerous unexplainable experiences that has even her mother extremely worried. In fact, I spoke to her mother last evening and she implored me earnestly to begin a clearing ceremony using the holy oil she had gotten from her church. She was very aware that there was some type of force at work here that is not pleasant. And was convinced it had been responsible for Talliyah getting ill...and even Tonya has contracted some type of infection "apparently" from giving birth over a month ago. Is it possible that it's symptoms are only now becoming evident? Does anybody have any insight into this aspect? It would be appreciated.

Another "sensitive" friend, a tenant, has been hit with some intense nightmares that have left her with actual physical pain from them. It seems every time we make arrangements to perform a clearing in another tenant's apartment (yes, another "sensitive" who was recently awakened) to get rid of this thing, one of us is struck with some type of illness. There is a LOT of supernatural activity going on here and it's clear these forces are trying everthing in their power to stop us. I spent one evening without sleep because they were all over my bed and got up, after 6 hours, and was absolutely livid. I mean wanting-to-throw-things-around angry...and that is not me at all. Any protection I employ works for a night and then stops having any effect. And that damn high pitched pinging that sounds like crickets is almost painful sometimes. Whatever it is, they are doing everything in their power to keep the four of us from getting together. That prospect apparently frightens them...and they have every reason to be. I sense there is some kind of completeness if the four of us combine our strength.

Listen to me...holy cow, I sound like I'm ready for the loonie bin! If I wasn't experiencing this personally, I might find it difficult to believe. All of this happening together is hardly coincidental. Any suggestions or related experience would be most welcome, if you don't mind sharing.

As an additional ingredient, I still do not even know if I got the position I had applied for at the new site office. My boss left me a message last Monday saying that she was going on vacation for the week and would "deal with it" when she returned today. Uh, the position needs to be filled by the end of this month! I'm almost afraid to talk to her because I feel like my emotional side will rise up and I'll be giving her a piece of my mind. That means I would have a week in total to arrange for a move!!! Ridiculous!

Sorry for the rant here but that's what blogs are for...But seriously, if you pay attention to only one thing here, it is my sincere and heartfelt request for your prayers for little Talliyah. Please let your friends know and ask them to send their prayers, positive thoughts and healing energy to her.

Thank you sincerely.

Nick

Bless Talliyah's heart. I can't imagine what the sweet little angel is going through. It's heartbreaking for a child to be sick. I send her my best positive healing thoughts and prayers. ((hugs))

I'm heartsick to hear that Talliyah's parents are going through a negative time as well. Unfortunately, it sounds as if if was inertia that put their family security in jeopardy. Sometimes we humans get set in a sidetrack motion and lose sight of what we should do. My positive thoughts and prayers go out to the entire family that resources and agents can be found to resolve the negative issues. This must be tearing you apart as it effects the happiness and security of Talliyah. Follow your heart on this one. I know you'll make the right decision.

I've been wondering how the new job oppt was going. I thought about popping by and asking. My positive thoughts and
prayers go out to you to get the job as it sounds to be a more positive life and work situation. You know, I just got to say that If I were a boss-person, I don't think I could go on vacation and leave someone hanging in limbo like that... unless the bosses over me hadn't made up their minds... she may be as much in the dark as you are...
~Crosses fingers~ Wishing you the Best of job luck. :)

Hey, rant away my friend, that's the best part of journaling, I think it helps to express ourselves by writing out frustrations instead of keeping them locked away inside where they eat away us amking us grumpy or giving us an ulcer. ;)

Take care. Wishing you a pleasant and calm week.

hello my dear friend . I will certainly keep the precious angel, Talliyah in my thoughts. Very sorry that she's going through all this.

BTW, no need to be sorry for your comments on my journal or your so called "babbling"--- I enjoyed reading the comments and was glad you could relate with me. it's always wonderful hearing from you. My email is now Miss.Pixie08@gmail.com if you ever wanna chat or keep in touch better than bravejournal heh heh.

Once again, dropping some lines to say that Talliyah with be in my thoughts and I will send some healing energy her way, hun. Keep us updated.

I have already sebt reiki healing to this little darling and strength as well as wisdom to the mom and dad. I have talked withMetatron of the ALBs to pay special attention to this little girl. He assured me he will be there in every sense of the word, her mother needs to ask for his assistiance so He may step in and do the protective things the ALBs are sllowed to do.

You are correct this is a time of great change, the awakening is no longer easy, it is fighting the darkness with a force not seen before so stand back sweet heart you aint seen nothing yet.

Love ya, LWM

Gosh sorry for all the spelling mistakes on the other post, this may be a bit better

I have already sent reiki healing to this little darling and strength as well as wisdom to the mom and dad. I have talked with Metatron of the ALBs to pay special attention to this little girl. He assured me he will be there in every sense of the word, her mother needs to ask for his assistiance so He may step in and do the protective things the ALBs are allowed to do.

You are correct this is a time of great change, the awakening is no longer easy, it is fighting the darkness with a force not seen before so stand back sweet heart you aint seen nothing yet.

Love ya, LWM

I am really sorry to hear about the little one. I too will be thinking of her today!

I am not expert on the things you are going thought and it has been YEARS since I have done anything in the "craft" but this may help your problem. Do a complete physical cleaning of the entire area floors, walls, furniture, closets, every room, etc, while concentrating on the act of removing any spirit or negativity. Open all the windows and doors. Use lemon water with a little salt to wipe down everything to cleanse it spiritually. Then burn some sage in a fire proof dish. Either place this in the most effected room or walk through every room of the house saying or concentrating on removing any negativity or spirits. When you are done, close up all the windows and doors. You can seal them with protective charms to ensure whatever it was doesn't get back in. Religious symbols may work or a line of salt or you could just tie a bunch of grass knots or plant holy out side your window or in planters near windows and doors. Oh and yes you can add me to your friends list. I added you today!